As much as I like to think I practice what I preach, that’s a hard task to constantly fulfill. Always being the positive and optimistic guy is not all rainbows and sunshine. It’s actually pretty damn hard to be happy all the time. At times I can feel like I am tricking myself into what I think is “being content.” I sometimes realize how human and mortal I really am. As I push myself to be a leader in many aspects of my life, I learn how difficult it really can be. I really have to try keep myself upright more often than not…..
“Keep your head up man!”
“You got this, just keep pushing yourself and you’ll make it through.”
“Don’t give up man. Just suck it up and get it done.”
“You are lucky to be able to do what you do, be happy you have the skills you have.”
While those thoughts constantly run through my head I tend to push my limits more often than most people. Both psychologically and physically. I stay up late enough to the point where my efficiency, my focus and my overall energy levels just suffer. I still manage to do what I do, but I know I probably won’t be able to go at this speed forever. I pray just about everyday that everything I do pays off somehow. It’s honestly really scary to me.
The idea that everything I am doing here on this blog, at my day job and any freelance work, won’t pay off. There is something frightening about turning 40 and still doing what I am doing right now. Fear is pushing me to work, work, work. It’s not just being stuck in the place I am right now, it’s also being stuck financially. I, along with millions of others are burdened with debt from school, their homes, their cars, credit cards and other finances. Finding motivation to defeat all of these thoughts in my mind and the minds of countless others is not easy. It’s actually a constant frustration I face, whether I show it or not.
Then I remind myself one thing.
If I don’t stay motivated, reach for a life of happiness and continue to progress in the abilities I have, I am only doing myself an injustice. Not only myself, but my family, my friends and those that look up to me. I honestly never thought that would happen unless I had a child of my own, but it is still strange to think that I have people that come to me for guidance, advice and inspiration. If I quit I don’t just suffer, I let them down too. We all influence others in some way even when we think we don’t.
I think it’s easy for life to appear in a bubble. We think all things only reflect on us at times, but in reality your life is bigger than you think. Your actions don’t just influence your own wellness, but the wellness of others too. It sends out of a wave bigger than we can imagine. When we help others, they help others some day too.
Maybe it’s just a smile or a piece of advice, but it’s something. That little “something” can make all the difference.
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keep making a difference.