As of September 25th 2014 I have published 735 blog posts to my blog. I start posting to this blog on May 21st 2012, so that means 735 posts in 857 days. I only had 2 posts in May of 2012. My rate of publishing got better and more consistent in late 2013 and even more so in 2014.
For 2014, I have published 365 posts already and it’s a number that has resonated with me and made me analyze the purpose of my goal of 500 blog posts in one year. When I looked at the numbers, I couldn’t help but notice that progress was evident and that I am capable of hitting 500 in one year. The fact that around half of all the posts published to my blog were done in 2014 alone is just crazy. 365 posts in 268 days is at least one post published per day or at least 9 per week. Not to mention, I have over 60 drafts that I could still publish. I just haven’t finished them or felt they were “good enough.”
Which brings me to my next point.
What does this mean. What Am I trying to prove to myself?
We all have something to prove, but have you ever wondered who you are trying to prove points to in your life? Are you really doing this for you? Or are you doing something just to make your mark in someone else’s eyes. Why does that matter so much to you? Those are the kind of thoughts that I have been sifting through with these numbers. My personal goal of 500 blog posts in 2014 is very much achievable. My numbers are great evidence of that.
The problem is that I feel like I have reached it already. I have proved it to myself. I honestly could care less if I reach 500 or not anymore. I know I have the ambition and will power to do a goal like that without actually doing it.
Does that sound strange?
The problem is that I am at time in my life where I want to slow down. I want to focus on less and make the best of the less. I’ve been running pretty fast for the past few years of my life and there are signs telling me to slow down, spend time with people, stop trying to prove a point all the time. The silliest part about it is that I was just proving a point to myself. No one told me to “do this” or “do that” I just did stuff. Lots of stuff. I am very grateful for what it has brought me, but now I just want to live and love life.
I think that you can feel this way too. I bet you might be hard on yourself all the time. I mean it’s great for progress, but does it have to be infinite?
Letting go of proving yourself doesn’t mean that you stop writing.
It doesn’t mean that you stop creating things.
It means it’s time to enjoy the fact that you don’t need to prove yourself anymore.
I know that I can do great things. I’ve seen it happen. You should know that you are capable of great things too.
This time, I want life and the people that I love to lead me.
I have decided to slow down on publishing for the rest of the year. Even though I said I would reach 500 posts in one year in my latest book, I’m perfectly fine with where I’m at. I’m happy. It’s awesome. I hope you all can respect that.
